its another one of those low energy days, when my feet and fingers are freezing cold for no reason, the tight bandage feeling on my forehead feels even tighter, my eyes feel like i have slept for way too long or not at all and all togehter i feel like i am stuck in a box. yet i should be happy for a day off. two, actually so twice as happy.
your breathing, your thoughts, your heart they all work by themselves, to keep you alive. they dont ask for a permission to exist and work in you, to keep you alive. you dont get to choose whether to live or not. fortunately or unfortunately, you cant control your physical body. i know you thought you did but you’re wrong. and while you are being kept alive, just like in a hospital, where you dont get to choose, by the best of what evolution could offer, you have to find yourself between the heartbeats, thoughts and breathing. you have to cope with yourself, the fact that most things in life happen no matter what the thoughts in your head are. cope with the fact that, yes, your are the one who makes your own life and decides your future, but you are still strangled and encaged by fear, that makes you choose the most comfortable way. choose what is secure and the way where nothing can go wrong. no, you're not to blame for, it's been happening for centuries and will keep on happening. this is the way our society makes us. like they say ''you have the face of your society.''
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